kutob

my intuition never ceases to fail me. and im all the happier for it ;-)

sometimes i catch myself with my heart pounding wildly, and i dread the thought of my mom in ill health. but my mom's okay. and getting better. and i so enjoyed our conversation late last month. :-)

there was also that time when i was in a cab going home from makati round midnight, and i find that the cab has auto-lock and i couldn't seem to lift the lock up, and everywhere inside there was no identifying marks of the cab's owner nor the plate number. Panic-stricken, i call a friend. just to let the driver know that somebody's aware of my whereabouts. it was a most horrible 25 minutes. a voice inside my head was telling me to jump out at the next stop. i was so tempted but i didn't. instead, i talked to the driver about the proposed power rate increase. when he signified approval of my office's campaign, i found hope. he's okay. and he was. and i came home that night safe and so glad to be alive. so it was right that i didnt jump out. :-D

now i shake my head in shame, yet again :-D, thinking that something was up (or down?) with some friends, but now finding out, so casually, that everything's alright after all. hihihi.

what feels right? what feels safe? what feels good? my intuition is lost. but i intend to find it ;-)