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one of my fave things to do...copy-paste :-D (from one blog to another) this is a letter i wrote in reply to a good friend's email last month. been thinking a lot about my friendships lately. in much the same way some girls 'analyze' their relationship with their boyfriends, i have this particular circle of friends which marvels at the wonders of friendship. (yikes! im so redundant!)

2 weeks from now, my goddess friend from nyc is coming home and has asked me to list several topics we'll be discussing. one of which of course is OUR friendship! hehe. yes, LYH, i think im ready ;-) because "without friendship, what is love?" -- Aquarius weekend forecast

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to you with the scales and the sting,

i had to read your long email twice! probably to take some time, 'analyze' everything and compose something 'rational.' hehehehe. what can i say??? thank you for saying all that. thank you for being you. :-)

it makes me sad when you feel that your opinion does not matter, or that you can no longer talk to me about controversial matters for fear(?!?) that your ability to see the other side of the issue might offend me. i can see how i might give out that kind of impression. im not gonna apologize, coz it's like apologizing for being ME. but i want you to know that whatever you say to me, affirmative, dissenting, neutral, whatever at all, it matters to me because it comes from you and you matter to me because i consider you to be one of my most treasured friends and you know me, and you love me (however difficult loving me can sometimes prove :-) )

i can see (another way of saying 'I KNOW' hihihi) how you can get intimidated when i get all 'analytical'. hell, it bothers me too! sometimes it gets in the way of me FEELING things! you say, "I don't know how you could be rational gani when you are hurt,
that's pretty tough. " Huhuhuhuhu. You are so right!!! haay.

we've had our share of disagreements in the past. Mostly when im being un-mindful of other people's feelings, of being impulsive, reckless (high in the fascination of having the time of my life), of being unintentionally hurtful of other people's spirit... i guess i have also burdened you with too much information. have driven you crazy with every 'colorful', complicated twists and turns in my aquarian life, in my wanting to experience everything and everyone without care to the damage it involved to me, to others. I thank you for putting up with all these, and for (hopefully) putting with a little more, in the future (?).

i appreciate you for having your 'scales'. (and your sting, when you turn into a full-fledged scorpio hehe) whenever i confide in you, it's because youre my friend, its because you care, because of your outsider's point of view, because of all these.

i know you have good faith in me so that no matter what you say, (like i said) i trust that you always mean well.

about my current life-challenge, i havent figured everything out. you're right, embrace the unknown. i just have to find the (libran) balance so i dont hug it too tight nor too loose. and appreciate all the friendly souls who arm me, who protect me, by letting me know that i am loved no matter what; and a nice pair of shades when the unknown gets too glaring; or a reliable pair of sneakers to help me run away, or run closer, whichever is tolerable ;-)

To life!
(raising my glass of cholorophyll!*)


*green-colored liquid one dilutes in water, to drink. for cleansing ;-)