a long long time ago...

had a past life reading session last night. thanks to non-believer capricorn J for the documentation :-)

important things:

waahh!!! i was not a 'superstar!' my names didnt matter in written history! hehehe.

i have always been a spirit (animal, plant, human, element) of the Nile. Until that lifetime when i was an Egyptian temple priestess and there was abundance and suddenly, desecration of all things sacred. Dismayed, frustrated, seeing the men use their powers against the women, seeing the women extremely subjugated, feeling very sad for the prostitutes, i took a herb, and killed myself with a dagger struck thru my throat. (is that why im a frustrated singer?)

i must have been some important priestess because the temple people kept the nature of my death. they only said i met an accident. many people were shocked. hmm.

i had also been a cat. (huhuhu so why do they scare me in this lifetime???) a white cat with the furs standing up. a very sensitive-perceptive white cat.

i had also been a fish, golden yellow with black spots, swimming in the Nile River.

i wore a white stone. and a purple crystal. this means I HAVE MYSTICAL QUALITY!

after that suicide in Egypt, it seems my soul vowed never to return to the said place. and so there was ireland. and a happy ordinary housewife. i liked it there because i could express my intuitive side without the people freaking out, them being Celts. i wore a tall hat, and always carried a whip and stick. (dette2 the white wizard ;-) )

my reader said i have the ability to do magic!!!

MY SOUL MATE.
i have already met my soul mate when i was a priestess in egypt. he's also evolving now. but it's going to take awhile (we are not so attached to each other) since he is focused on the study of the Sun. he has to struggle with the good fire and bad fire. while my attachment is to silence and the eternity within. goody. ;-)

also, i was always in a high position, where i can be an example to people. i asked my reader, so whats my bad karma? she said, nothing really, except that you are 'tasked' to help the women. develop them. teach the women magic.

i asked what kind of magic do i have in this lifetime. she said it's like "commonsense" magic. not the frightening psychic magic. (whew! sigh of relief.) it's going to be a hard process helping women develop their 'small' desires to 'big' desires. selfish desires to community desires. from desires to sacred love.

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so there. i liked my reading because it was related to my present life. in what ways? a very good friend says, yes you must have that 'practical' magic, touching the women that you meet in everyday life, making a difference in little, subtle ways ;-) also, i liked what she said about (and could somehow relate to) not being too attached to my soul mate, instead, to the eternity within (i dont even know if i really want a soul mate! haha). having been told that i had always been concerned with the plight of women, it affirms my present state, my interest in women issues, my wanting formal feminist studies in the near future, my abandonment of my opppresive-catholic background, me working for an NGO, and the mini campaigns i stage for friends for the struggle for equality. And it reassures me that my entanglements with complicated situations all have lessons to teach toward female integrity. ;-)